Today, I was on a mission. After all of my recent major illnesses, pain, surgery and long hospitalizations, I had gotten off-track. And I do mean off-track—it seemed like everything from my diet and eating habits, to my sleep schedule, to my writing, had been affected.
So, now I planned to change course and get my life back in order. I wanted to actually schedule things that needed to be completed on a daily, or at least a regular, basis. However, the Sacred seemed to have other ideas for me. Without warning, right at the change of the hour (11am), I began to experience an exceptionally deep relaxation response. It felt as though it were about twice as deep as my usual visits—and those are never weak!
At the same time, I noticed my teeth becoming unclenched, which I had not noticed that they were in the first place. This experience was clearly different.
Before I continue, let me share with you that my therapist had, about a month before, created a recording of a beautiful segment of our session. It is just under 15 minutes long and is designed to help me, whenever I listen to it, to reach a state of relaxation in order to counter my fairly constant state of anxiety.
It is hypnotic.
You may have guessed what happened next in my spiritual experience: the Voice of the Sacred reminded me that I should listen to that recording every day. I said, in reply, “should this become part of my morning routine, then?” The answer was a simple “Yes.” (By the way, the Voice that I hear has no gender. It is neither masculine nor feminine, but it is always clear. Beyond that, I cannot describe it).
I know that I had a bit more of a conversation in which I both realized and acknowledged that this message was clearly intended to occur in synchronicity with my new attempt to create a daily schedule. I was very grateful, and I expressed that to the Sacred. I then awoke.
Suddenly, I realized that I was grateful for something else…for two things that my late husband left with me, in order for me to survive financially after he died. So, I went back into the trance, albeit lightly, and asked The Sacred to share my gratitude with David. I asked several times, and felt confident that my desire would be fulfilled, although I did not hear anything. Significantly, this was the first time that I tried to reengage the spiritual trance after it appeared to be over.
I think I succeeded.
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